the BIG DAY

So the big day came and went. The big day of course was the results of my scan. What I've realised is that there's never a definitive answer.

My scan was not clear, but that does not mean I have cancer. There is still evidence of enlarged nodes in my body. They are much smaller than they were. They could get smaller. They could stay the same. They could get larger. They even said they wouldn't treat if they did get larger. Really the test is how I feel, and I feel good. I don't have any symptoms. I don't have any night sweats. So really the purpose of this scan is to stage me, or check out what I look like when I'm 'normal'. I have another scan in 3 months - another 'big day' to look forward to.

My hemoglobin has been dropping a little over the past few consultations so I've been given multi vitamins to take, and another blood test in 2 weeks. They are not concerned because the anti pneumonia tablets I was on, and have now stopped, have side effects of their own which could be the cause.

In the mean time I have been going to the gym, ridden my bike, and have bought a new bike too. A road bike! that I will be collecting on Tuesday.

postsecret

I've been reading post secret for some time now. Rather than explain what it is just watch this video.

I can't believe you forgot my birthday!

Yesterday was a good day, in fact it was the best day. The sun was shining, and I went on a proper off-road mountain bike ride. It was so much fun. And I didn't do too badly. I was clearly using easier gears than I had been used to back in the day, but that's what gears are there for. In the evening I went swimming in an attempt to soothe my aching muscles. It worked, kind of, I'm feeling it today! But then, it's the most exercise I've done in a looooooong time.

Today marks 100 days since my stem cell transplant. Happy 100th day second birthday to me.

a transition

Because I caught it so early the Shingles didn't really amount to much. It's just a bit itchy now, must resist the scratch!

I am now on a very low dose of Aciclovir to ward it off in the future until my immune system gets a bit more confident.

I feel weird at the moment because everything seems to be going right. I'm not used to things going right. I have a CT scan in a couple of weeks, maybe that will throw me back into the spiral of doom. Or maybe not? Everything is changing and it's hard to pull myself out of my 'sick' life. I am getting married in Greece in October. We are moving to a house in about 4 weeks time. My job is going well. We are going to buy a new sofa, washing machine, and fridge, and the neighbours cat at my new house is very friendly. What more could I ask for?